Wednesday, November 4, 2009
9:12 PM ●

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WHY EVERYTIME LIKE THAT???!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WHY?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

CAN'T TAKE IT LE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
9:51 PM ● Unwritten

I am unwritten, can't read my mind, I'm undefined
I'm just beginning, the pen's in my hand, ending unplanned

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

Oh, oh, oh

I break tradition, sometimes my tries, are outside the lines
We've been conditioned to not make mistakes, but I can't live that way

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten

Oh, yeah, yeah
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
3:29 AM ●

2 words to describe the 17th Thirty-first August in my life... "Fortunate(XINFU)" & "Satisfied(MANZU)"
Sunday, August 23, 2009
10:35 PM ●

HIDDEN-
Monday, August 17, 2009
9:12 PM ●

HIDDEN-
Saturday, August 15, 2009
3:46 PM ●

HIDDEN-
Friday, August 14, 2009
11:05 PM ●

HIDDEN-
Sunday, August 9, 2009
12:26 AM ●

HIDDEN-
Saturday, August 8, 2009
11:09 PM ●

HIDDEN-
Thursday, July 9, 2009
10:08 PM ●

yay~ FINALLY! I'm able to practise self-restrain and discipline!

Now seriously seriously NO JOKES. NO FUN>WORK. NO DOING THINGS ON IMPULSE.

I SHALL FOLLOW MY HEAD RATHER THAN MY HEART.

CHIONG FOR PROMOs le!!!

THOSE WHO WANNA STUDY WITH ME, MAKE SURE U REALLY STUDY AND NOT SLEEP/SLACK/CRAP/PLAY/BREAKTIME>WORKTIME or else i won't study with you. You know that this is the correct way of studying in a group, practise self-restrain! please! THESE 2 YEARS OF JC is very crucial. It's not a time to enjoy life and friends' company. If you believe so, 'please get a withdrawal form from the general office', -quoted from my form teacher. If u wanna correct your study habits, or build momentum, you can study with me, i will ENSURE that you will be on the right track within 3 study sessions.

FOR MORE INFOs on how to psycho the mind to gear yourself towards success, feel free to approach me.
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
9:43 PM ●

sigh...didn't go school today becos of... which led to me... and resulted in...

then received a call from a student councillor telling me that i'm selected to be part of an event committee... and guess what? the event falls on my birthday. sian.

today is a cold day, and it was worsened by yiying's cold joke on msn.

Did maths APGP homework just now. after that, i was so mentally drained that i dun feel like doing anything now.

HAI!!!

EOY quickly come!!!
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
10:21 PM ●

Enough nonsense.

now, CHIONG for EOYs!!!
Monday, July 6, 2009
10:22 PM ●

I feel so 辛福 (blissful)!

(notice the girls behind... Totally SHOCKED... LOL)
(Girl behind envying the xinfu-ness tat she
has never & will never enjoy in her lifetime.)
CUTIE CUTIE!!! I'M GONNA GO BONKERS SOON!!! (*faints*)
Who's playing Hu?!!

Went out with dion, my hubby and my love rival to Bugis to shop for my shorts... but in the end, i didn't buy anything. :( Dunnoe why, when i have no cash, i will wanna buy lotsa things. Got cash, i dun feel like buying anymore. LOL.

Wanted to meet fangying to pass her her 16 1/2 birthday present... in the end cos john hao said i dress like a Beng... then i dun feel like meeting her le.

This morning woke up later than 7. Yizheng supposed to run with me. But dun think he woke up or ran cos he didn't contact me... i didn't bother contacting him too. So i ran alone from my house to bedok reservoir and back. did all the gym workouts except for military press and bench press. AHHH...my back and left arm hurt ALOT!!! cos long time never do liao.

TMW SCHOOL...donn't noe i excited anot...think excited about the exam result release part only ba...going to school to have lessons ~> =(

PROMOs FASTER OVER LEHHH!!! I WANNA PLAYYY.

anyone wanna start chionging for promos with me~?

Sunday, July 5, 2009
7:29 PM ● NEW EPISODE

THE BATTLE FOR LOVE (JC VS JH) (YY VS DT)
the last time in 'battle for (dt's) love', JC gave DT up for JH under pressing circumstances. In this episode, JC found that he couldn't live a single day without DT. So he approached DT to confess his feelings. EXPECTEDLY, DT decided to re-accept JC into his life, with JC promising to keep DT safe and warm.

Later on, YY appeared, her mind sorted out, determined to make her move to win JH's heart and a reunion.

HU would win in the battle for love?!!!
DON't miss..the next episode of 'battle for love'!

XXX signing off~

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LOL.. i was too bored.
Saturday, July 4, 2009
5:53 PM ●

THU-FRI
Went to wax my legs (: (: But damn painful!!! When the lady pulled out the first strip, I didn't wanna continue le...bobian, continued the torturous sesson for 1 hr. After waxing, i saw a pair of sexy legs!!! OMY OMY!!! :D :D even the lady said so. Show you:

aiii...alot of you would wanna know why i've decided to wax. It's not that i dun want leg hair, it's just that i dun want that much... i'll look like a 'gorilla that looks like a man' (quoted from johnhao) very painful remark eh... and it's not 'a man that looks like a gorilla', it's the other way ehhh... i just want the length of my leg hair to be around an average man's one. But, the wax professional said that to reduce my hair length significantly, i must come back 3 more times. Which means, i have to go through everything 3 more times!!! AHHHHHHHH...!!!!!!!!

After that, i went out with dion and detian to cityhall to eat. Accompanied Dion to eat at burger king first before having my dinner/supper at Cafe Cartel where we enjoyed the 50% off snacks and drinks happy hour offer.

They came to my house. I invited johnhao and yizheng along too to play mahjong and bridge. But yizheng couldn't stay overnight, so he left at 1am. We didn't play till morning...went to sleep at around 2+. but i woke up as my stomach was growling. Ate the remaining food from cafe cartel with johnhao. And we chatted till 5am.

Not before long, i was woken up by detian. and he was stroking my legs. then he came down to the bed me and johnhao were sharing on. and he HUGGED JOHNHAO!!! OHMY!!! AGHHHH... *CRIES*. actually not... cos my legs were in between them. and i tried to prevent johnhao from taking advantage of my detian.
After that, there were MANY occasions that my detian come and hug me!!! HMPHH!!! SEE JOHN! I HAVE MY CHARMS!!!

Went to white sands and had sakae sushi buffet with 2 more people (jeremy and veronica). Hu noticed my legs faster than jeremy!!! WAA...jeremy is one slow person. Though jeremy denies it, HE WAS SHOCKED. :P

Johnhao kept seducing my detian...can't stand it sia... i got tired of fighting with him and told him that i'll give detian to him. HMPH!!! i can find better guys with my eligibility. ALL THE BEST to both of you!

Then we went Pasir Ris Beach. BLAH BLAH BLAH...in summary, jeremy can go and dieeeeeeee. After that, told them that i'm going toilet, but nobody was listening, felt transparent. On my way to the toilet, i was half running, half walking as my pants were too loose, and dropping!!! EHHHH!!! ONE DAY MUST GO BUGIS BUY SHORTS K dion? PROMISE! Can't find the toilet!!! AGHHH!!! and my bladder was exploding. almost pee-ed in my pants. can't find my way to the mrt station too, so i took a bus there instead.

4:11 PM ● it's PAY BACK TIME!

lol. today is literally a 'thanks-giving' day for me. heard much, and said much 'thanks' to people who had truly cared and helped me. Especially to those who influenced the major decisions in my life as well as to those who had developed my strong character.

thanked:
1.) Mr Jared Oh (my PSL teacher)
Story:
I was a student councillor in sec 2. During sec 2 streaming, i was unexpectedly posted to a class that i've never thought i would be in (in a bad sense). Parents transferred me to temasek secondary. To them, although my results had met with the requirement to get to the class i want, if i would have gotten abit more, i would be in advantage, confirming my place in that class. And the thing that caused my downfall is my dedication to TK student council. They think i contributed so much to the school, but yet the school just did this crap to me. So, DUH, being a student leader in TMS would be out of the qn, i thought. However, this guy appeared. Knew i was new and was a student leader in my ex-school before. He asked me whether i would like to continue as a student leader in this school. i considered for a while and agreed. Got into PSL after several interviews, and through votes by my teachers, i got into exco.
Life as a student leader in TMS was very different. It was amazing and had shaped me into who i am and how i think&behave now. (though i'm still trying to get rid of my childish behaviours, sigh, no choice, i'm always that young at heart.) This guy who i've mentioned is no other than MO. He's a great teacher. He imparted alot of leadership skills and tackling-relationship skills to us. THANK MO!!! XD
- Other people who had helped me tremenduosly along my PSL journey are: AMY(PSL CHAIRWOMAN) & SAMUEL(PSL VICE-CHAIR CUM TRAINING COMM CHAIRMAN).

2.) MY STUDY GROUP MATES (who had helped me academically and spiritually):
DILLON, KEESIANG, RUSSELL, JINGQUAN, ZHIYI
JOHNTANG also my bestest pal in class!
FANGYING, JACALYN
- JOKERS+NICE-Rs: ZHIRONG, KEEFE, SHIQI, DANIEL, DARREN

3.) OTHERS FROM TK/TMS:
FELICIA, CHINKIAT, MICHELLE, KRYSTAL, ANGIE, SHIMIN, EDWIN, MAM JACQUELYN, FARHAN, VICKALYNA, AMANDA, PEIYUN, GUANHONG.

4.) my MJC emotional-supporters:
(ever since i stepped into MJC, my emotional problems has been my greatest problem. BUT, thanks to these people who TRULY cared and showed concern to me, life is still a bliss. And each time i find my way through, i get stronger and less vulnerable.)
JOHNHAO, YINMEI, KENNETH, TONGYANG, SAFFA.

Got to thank those people who are constantly true and showed that there's still presence of innocence. Giving me hope in life. They are:
NICOLE WONG, JACALYN, NICOLE LIM, YIYING, SENNETT(not retarded anymore).

OTHER PEOPLE WHO DRIVE ME ON:
COACH MS LIM (admire her for her great thoughts, though mostly hidden) and FORM TEACHER MS KOH (for her faith in me).

MISC. :
DETIAN(who i fought miserably for but ended up with nothing but more miseries.), JOSHUA, SHULIANG, JASLYNN, XINYI, ZHICONG, AMANDA.

People who taught me great lessons + life skills:
ENGLEE, DION, DAD
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
10:17 PM ●

I dun hate jeremy anymore! PEACE (: i'm so happy now!!!
*SMILE*

and excited for tmw's outing!!! YIPEE!!! HOORAY!!!!~ :D :D
9:33 PM ●

I officially declare that i hate JEREMY TAN CHUAN HAO. he's DAMN DAMN IRRITATING ehhhh. talk to him seriously/nicely, he's always playing a fool with me. Saying TMS is a joke and what not... i really dun care! but keep repeating infront of me... it becomes super annoying to the point that i feel like killing him. HU also from temasek, why dun say infront of her? People from tms got harm u in any way meh?

IDIOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GO PUT YOUR HEAD IN THE TOILET BOWL...and can shun bian flush it down. your brain belongs there.
7:37 PM ●

7:16 PM ●

A dream is a wish your heart makes
When you're fast asleep
In dreams you will loose your heartache
Whatever you wish for you keep
Have faith in your dreams and someday
Your rainbow will come smiling through
No matter how your heart is grieving
If you keep on believing
The dream that you wish will come true

A dream is a wish your heart makes
When you're feeling small
Alone in the night you whisper
Thinking no-one can hear you at all
You wake with the morning sunlight
To find fortune that is smiling on you
Don't let your heart be filled with sorrow
For all you know tomorrow
The dream that you wish will come true

A dream is a wish your heart makes (x2)

You wake with the morning sunlight
To find fortune that is smiling on you
Don't let your heart be filled with sorrow
For all you know tomorrow
The dream that you wish will come true

No matter how your heart is grieving
If you keep on believing
The dream that you wish will come true
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
11:48 PM ●

can't have the canoeing chalet anymore :( ...didn't know women's champ coming up so fast.

BUT YAY! after 4pm tmw, all my stress will be goneeeeeeeeeeee.... :) :)

Really pity those people who still have exam(s) on thursday. hehe:p

Sigh...no canoeing chalet, guess the most we can have is a meal together before those hardcore trainings.
1:18 AM ●

Anyone wanna go waxing with me?
'Canoeing POST-MYE Celebration Chalet Camp' you all want or not? =D

Some recent photos:

The ever so charming - ME.
Dion!!! Hu are you stealing Jeremy from?!!

How come we dun get such treatments?
HOW to get off from my beloved Detian!!!
My Cutiepieee ;p
1:10 AM ●

(*heart shatters*)
ACT CUTE only... hey xinyi, i prefer ur this hairstyle!
Looks wrong without the marker pen in his hand.
How can you do this? Hu's feeling jealous now?
My hubby emo-ing...
Why did i take this pig shot?
Saturday, June 27, 2009
9:29 PM ● MY MOOD SWINGS

HEY GUYSSS!!! i've finally understand why i'm having all those terrible mood swings... COS it's all part of puberty. LOL.

Recently, i realise that i am having extreme feelings and have been bothered by them, especially when they cause me to neglect my friends or portray a really weird image of myself. Can't let my cool cool reputation be tarnished right?.. So i went to research for the reasons and solutions. And results show that i'm an OVER-SENSITIVE(psychologically) person. Some background infos:

over sensitivity defined
Over sensitivity is being over affected by an external influence that can hardly affect normal people, for example not being able to tolerate constructive criticism that other people normally tolerate.
the life of an over sensitive person
The life of an over sensitive person is much different than the life of other people, simple because the over sensitive person feels the pain in an exaggerated way and so has problems tolerating it. the over sensitve person forms anchors faster than anybody else, for example if he had a real bad experience in a different country than his home country, after he gets back he may hate the country as a whole because in that case he anchored the pain he felt to the place.
over sensitivity and mood swings
Over sensitive people are more likely to have bad moods, to get depressed and to be moody because their mode changes whenever any small event happen. An emotionally sensitive person is like a fragile person, or a person who is labeled "handle with care". The biggest problem is that people don't have enough knowledge sometimes to realize that they are dealing with an emotionally sensitive person and so they may cause him lots of pain without realizing this. A good thing that you can do in this case is to use the technique called "locking the emotions" in order to extend the periods of feeling happy.
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haha...especially during puberty period, oversensitive people will have even more frequent mood swings... that probably explains my regular mood swings lately.
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HEY!!! oversensitivity isn't a weakness hoh! Oversensitive people have their strengths too XD:

There are many good things about an emotionally sensitive person, first he feels people’s suffering more than anyone else and so in most cases he tends to be a nice and friendly person.
If you know how not to hurt a sensitive relationship partner then he will be a very good choice, emotionally sensitive people are the least problematic persons around.
Emotionally sensitive people usually have creative abilities which sometimes make them excel at arts or poetry.
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SOLUTIONS!!! (if u're experiencing the same problem as me, try these:)
DIET
LESS SUGAR!!!MORE PROTEIN!!!
Nutrition expert's advice: One thing you did not mention is sugar, yet severe mood swings and the need to eat regularly points to a problem with sugar metabolism, known as ‘hypoglycaemia’ or Low Blood Sugar (LBS). LBS occurs when the body's blood sugar, or glucose, is abnormally low, often because it is used up too rapidly. This could be an inherited weakness, although the condition most commonly develops as a result of a diet high in sugar, including from natural sources, and processed carbohydrates. LBS is known to have a very strong effect on the brain, and the symptoms you list are commonly associated with this condition. If sugar is not the issue, then perhaps you need to look at the fats in your son’s diet, in particular Omega 3 fats. These essential fats must be derived from food, as our body cannot make them by itself, hence the name ‘essential’.
Two fatty acids of particular importance in the sort of case you describe are EPA and DHA, found mainly in oily fish, and in flaxseed and hemp oils. DHA in particular is highly concentrated in the brain and nervous system, and was shown to improve learning and memory, dyslexia and dyspraxia and to enhance mood. It’s also important to restrict or avoid ‘bad’ fats, such as saturated and hydrogenated fats, which would counteract the benefits of good fats.
LOCKING YOUR EMOTIONS
One very good thing you can do to make mood swings happen less frequently is a technique called “Locking the Emotions”. This technique is based on a realistic assumption which implies that a great number of mood swings happen simply because we tend to persistently search and dig until we find something that makes us feel bad.
So let’s put it all together: if you feel happy or satisfied, try not to encounter unnecessary situations that can cause your mood to swing and you will find that your happiness lasts for much longer that it used to. Of course you still must go through daily important tasks and routines but only do them when you have to and not just because you want to dig.

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THIS IS A VERY GOOD WEBSITE THAT HAS EVERYTHING REGARDING PSYCHOLOGY AND THE MIND..(from how visualisation can help u succeed to how you can build good relationships, etc. EVEN the infos i've found are from there:)
http://www.2knowmyself.com/
(Scroll down and refer to some topics/FAQ on the very left column.)
Thursday, June 25, 2009
2:30 PM ● Where have all the friends gone?

Most of us start out seeking godly, true friends to walk with us over the stormy times, the pressured times and even our failures. But somewhere in our life experiences “true friends” seem harder and harder to find –- and keep! Circumstances change and real, or perceived, pressures on our friends lead them to think of their own best interests instead of ours. They then tend to leave us alone, taking sides with others and protecting themselves, becoming afraid to keep deeply identifying with us.

NA? -> my true friends?
HU? - to trust?
HOW? -> to keep them?

xxxxxx

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