RUN-IT

2009-11-04T21:12:00.002+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WHY EVERYTIME LIKE THAT???!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WHY?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

CAN'T TAKE IT LE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Unwritten

2009-10-14T21:51:00.000+08:00

I am unwritten, can't read my mind, I'm undefined
I'm just beginning, the pen's in my hand, ending unplanned

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

Oh, oh, oh

I break tradition, sometimes my tries, are outside the lines
We've been conditioned to not make mistakes, but I can't live that way

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten

Oh, yeah, yeah

2009-09-01T03:29:00.005+08:00

2 words to describe the 17th Thirty-first August in my life... "Fortunate(XINFU)" & "Satisfied(MANZU)"

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2009-07-09T22:08:00.003+08:00

yay~ FINALLY! I'm able to practise self-restrain and discipline!

Now seriously seriously NO JOKES. NO FUN>WORK. NO DOING THINGS ON IMPULSE.

I SHALL FOLLOW MY HEAD RATHER THAN MY HEART.

CHIONG FOR PROMOs le!!!

THOSE WHO WANNA STUDY WITH ME, MAKE SURE U REALLY STUDY AND NOT SLEEP/SLACK/CRAP/PLAY/BREAKTIME>WORKTIME or else i won't study with you. You know that this is the correct way of studying in a group, practise self-restrain! please! THESE 2 YEARS OF JC is very crucial. It's not a time to enjoy life and friends' company. If you believe so, 'please get a withdrawal form from the general office', -quoted from my form teacher. If u wanna correct your study habits, or build momentum, you can study with me, i will ENSURE that you will be on the right track within 3 study sessions.

FOR MORE INFOs on how to psycho the mind to gear yourself towards success, feel free to approach me.

2009-07-08T21:43:00.003+08:00

sigh...didn't go school today becos of... which led to me... and resulted in...

then received a call from a student councillor telling me that i'm selected to be part of an event committee... and guess what? the event falls on my birthday. sian.

today is a cold day, and it was worsened by yiying's cold joke on msn.

Did maths APGP homework just now. after that, i was so mentally drained that i dun feel like doing anything now.

HAI!!!

EOY quickly come!!!

2009-07-07T22:21:00.002+08:00

Enough nonsense.

now, CHIONG for EOYs!!!

2009-07-06T22:22:00.012+08:00

I feel so 辛福 (blissful)!

(notice the girls behind... Totally SHOCKED... LOL)

(Girl behind envying the xinfu-ness tat she
has never & will never enjoy in her lifetime.)

CUTIE CUTIE!!! I'M GONNA GO BONKERS SOON!!! (*faints*)

Who's playing Hu?!!

Went out with dion, my hubby and my love rival to Bugis to shop for my shorts... but in the end, i didn't buy anything. :( Dunnoe why, when i have no cash, i will wanna buy lotsa things. Got cash, i dun feel like buying anymore. LOL.

Wanted to meet fangying to pass her her 16 1/2 birthday present... in the end cos john hao said i dress like a Beng... then i dun feel like meeting her le.

This morning woke up later than 7. Yizheng supposed to run with me. But dun think he woke up or ran cos he didn't contact me... i didn't bother contacting him too. So i ran alone from my house to bedok reservoir and back. did all the gym workouts except for military press and bench press. AHHH...my back and left arm hurt ALOT!!! cos long time never do liao.

TMW SCHOOL...donn't noe i excited anot...think excited about the exam result release part only ba...going to school to have lessons ~> =(

PROMOs FASTER OVER LEHHH!!! I WANNA PLAYYY.

anyone wanna start chionging for promos with me~?

NEW EPISODE

2009-07-05T19:29:00.012+08:00

THE BATTLE FOR LOVE (JC VS JH) (YY VS DT)
the last time in 'battle for (dt's) love', JC gave DT up for JH under pressing circumstances. In this episode, JC found that he couldn't live a single day without DT. So he approached DT to confess his feelings. EXPECTEDLY, DT decided to re-accept JC into his life, with JC promising to keep DT safe and warm.

Later on, YY appeared, her mind sorted out, determined to make her move to win JH's heart and a reunion.

HU would win in the battle for love?!!!
DON't miss..the next episode of 'battle for love'!

XXX signing off~

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LOL.. i was too bored.

2009-07-04T17:53:00.000+08:00

THU-FRI
Went to wax my legs (: (: But damn painful!!! When the lady pulled out the first strip, I didn't wanna continue le...bobian, continued the torturous sesson for 1 hr. After waxing, i saw a pair of sexy legs!!! OMY OMY!!! :D :D even the lady said so. Show you:

aiii...alot of you would wanna know why i've decided to wax. It's not that i dun want leg hair, it's just that i dun want that much... i'll look like a 'gorilla that looks like a man' (quoted from johnhao) very painful remark eh... and it's not 'a man that looks like a gorilla', it's the other way ehhh... i just want the length of my leg hair to be around an average man's one. But, the wax professional said that to reduce my hair length significantly, i must come back 3 more times. Which means, i have to go through everything 3 more times!!! AHHHHHHHH...!!!!!!!!

After that, i went out with dion and detian to cityhall to eat. Accompanied Dion to eat at burger king first before having my dinner/supper at Cafe Cartel where we enjoyed the 50% off snacks and drinks happy hour offer.

They came to my house. I invited johnhao and yizheng along too to play mahjong and bridge. But yizheng couldn't stay overnight, so he left at 1am. We didn't play till morning...went to sleep at around 2+. but i woke up as my stomach was growling. Ate the remaining food from cafe cartel with johnhao. And we chatted till 5am.

Not before long, i was woken up by detian. and he was stroking my legs. then he came down to the bed me and johnhao were sharing on. and he HUGGED JOHNHAO!!! OHMY!!! AGHHHH... *CRIES*. actually not... cos my legs were in between them. and i tried to prevent johnhao from taking advantage of my detian.
After that, there were MANY occasions that my detian come and hug me!!! HMPHH!!! SEE JOHN! I HAVE MY CHARMS!!!

Went to white sands and had sakae sushi buffet with 2 more people (jeremy and veronica). Hu noticed my legs faster than jeremy!!! WAA...jeremy is one slow person. Though jeremy denies it, HE WAS SHOCKED. :P

Johnhao kept seducing my detian...can't stand it sia... i got tired of fighting with him and told him that i'll give detian to him. HMPH!!! i can find better guys with my eligibility. ALL THE BEST to both of you!

Then we went Pasir Ris Beach. BLAH BLAH BLAH...in summary, jeremy can go and dieeeeeeee. After that, told them that i'm going toilet, but nobody was listening, felt transparent. On my way to the toilet, i was half running, half walking as my pants were too loose, and dropping!!! EHHHH!!! ONE DAY MUST GO BUGIS BUY SHORTS K dion? PROMISE! Can't find the toilet!!! AGHHH!!! and my bladder was exploding. almost pee-ed in my pants. can't find my way to the mrt station too, so i took a bus there instead.

it's PAY BACK TIME!

2009-07-04T16:11:00.001+08:00

lol. today is literally a 'thanks-giving' day for me. heard much, and said much 'thanks' to people who had truly cared and helped me. Especially to those who influenced the major decisions in my life as well as to those who had developed my strong character.

thanked:
1.) Mr Jared Oh (my PSL teacher)
Story:
I was a student councillor in sec 2. During sec 2 streaming, i was unexpectedly posted to a class that i've never thought i would be in (in a bad sense). Parents transferred me to temasek secondary. To them, although my results had met with the requirement to get to the class i want, if i would have gotten abit more, i would be in advantage, confirming my place in that class. And the thing that caused my downfall is my dedication to TK student council. They think i contributed so much to the school, but yet the school just did this crap to me. So, DUH, being a student leader in TMS would be out of the qn, i thought. However, this guy appeared. Knew i was new and was a student leader in my ex-school before. He asked me whether i would like to continue as a student leader in this school. i considered for a while and agreed. Got into PSL after several interviews, and through votes by my teachers, i got into exco.
Life as a student leader in TMS was very different. It was amazing and had shaped me into who i am and how i think&behave now. (though i'm still trying to get rid of my childish behaviours, sigh, no choice, i'm always that young at heart.) This guy who i've mentioned is no other than MO. He's a great teacher. He imparted alot of leadership skills and tackling-relationship skills to us. THANK MO!!! XD
- Other people who had helped me tremenduosly along my PSL journey are: AMY(PSL CHAIRWOMAN) & SAMUEL(PSL VICE-CHAIR CUM TRAINING COMM CHAIRMAN).

2.) MY STUDY GROUP MATES (who had helped me academically and spiritually):
DILLON, KEESIANG, RUSSELL, JINGQUAN, ZHIYI
JOHNTANG also my bestest pal in class!
FANGYING, JACALYN
- JOKERS+NICE-Rs: ZHIRONG, KEEFE, SHIQI, DANIEL, DARREN

3.) OTHERS FROM TK/TMS:
FELICIA, CHINKIAT, MICHELLE, KRYSTAL, ANGIE, SHIMIN, EDWIN, MAM JACQUELYN, FARHAN, VICKALYNA, AMANDA, PEIYUN, GUANHONG.

4.) my MJC emotional-supporters:
(ever since i stepped into MJC, my emotional problems has been my greatest problem. BUT, thanks to these people who TRULY cared and showed concern to me, life is still a bliss. And each time i find my way through, i get stronger and less vulnerable.)
JOHNHAO, YINMEI, KENNETH, TONGYANG, SAFFA.

Got to thank those people who are constantly true and showed that there's still presence of innocence. Giving me hope in life. They are:
NICOLE WONG, JACALYN, NICOLE LIM, YIYING, SENNETT(not retarded anymore).

OTHER PEOPLE WHO DRIVE ME ON:
COACH MS LIM (admire her for her great thoughts, though mostly hidden) and FORM TEACHER MS KOH (for her faith in me).

MISC. :
DETIAN(who i fought miserably for but ended up with nothing but more miseries.), JOSHUA, SHULIANG, JASLYNN, XINYI, ZHICONG, AMANDA.

People who taught me great lessons + life skills:
ENGLEE, DION, DAD

2009-07-01T22:17:00.001+08:00

I dun hate jeremy anymore! PEACE (: i'm so happy now!!!
*SMILE*

and excited for tmw's outing!!! YIPEE!!! HOORAY!!!!~ :D :D

2009-07-01T21:33:00.000+08:00

I officially declare that i hate JEREMY TAN CHUAN HAO. he's DAMN DAMN IRRITATING ehhhh. talk to him seriously/nicely, he's always playing a fool with me. Saying TMS is a joke and what not... i really dun care! but keep repeating infront of me... it becomes super annoying to the point that i feel like killing him. HU also from temasek, why dun say infront of her? People from tms got harm u in any way meh?

IDIOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GO PUT YOUR HEAD IN THE TOILET BOWL...and can shun bian flush it down. your brain belongs there.

2009-07-01T19:37:00.001+08:00

2009-07-01T19:16:00.000+08:00

A dream is a wish your heart makes

When you're fast asleep

In dreams you will loose your heartache

Whatever you wish for you keep

Have faith in your dreams and someday

Your rainbow will come smiling through

No matter how your heart is grieving

If you keep on believing

The dream that you wish will come true

A dream is a wish your heart makes

When you're feeling small

Alone in the night you whisper

Thinking no-one can hear you at all

You wake with the morning sunlight

To find fortune that is smiling on you

Don't let your heart be filled with sorrow

For all you know tomorrow

The dream that you wish will come true

A dream is a wish your heart makes (x2)

You wake with the morning sunlight

To find fortune that is smiling on you

Don't let your heart be filled with sorrow

For all you know tomorrow

The dream that you wish will come true

No matter how your heart is grieving

If you keep on believing

The dream that you wish will come true

2009-06-30T23:48:00.000+08:00

can't have the canoeing chalet anymore :( ...didn't know women's champ coming up so fast.

BUT YAY! after 4pm tmw, all my stress will be goneeeeeeeeeeee.... :) :)

Really pity those people who still have exam(s) on thursday. hehe:p

Sigh...no canoeing chalet, guess the most we can have is a meal together before those hardcore trainings.

2009-06-30T01:18:00.000+08:00

Anyone wanna go waxing with me?
'Canoeing POST-MYE Celebration Chalet Camp' you all want or not? =D

Some recent photos:

The ever so charming - ME.

Dion!!! Hu are you stealing Jeremy from?!!

How come we dun get such treatments?

HOW to get off from my beloved Detian!!!

My Cutiepieee ;p

2009-06-30T01:10:00.000+08:00

(*heart shatters*)

ACT CUTE only... hey xinyi, i prefer ur this hairstyle!

Looks wrong without the marker pen in his hand.

How can you do this? Hu's feeling jealous now?

My hubby emo-ing...

Why did i take this pig shot?

MY MOOD SWINGS

2009-06-27T21:29:00.000+08:00

HEY GUYSSS!!! i've finally understand why i'm having all those terrible mood swings... COS it's all part of puberty. LOL.

Recently, i realise that i am having extreme feelings and have been bothered by them, especially when they cause me to neglect my friends or portray a really weird image of myself. Can't let my cool cool reputation be tarnished right?.. So i went to research for the reasons and solutions. And results show that i'm an OVER-SENSITIVE(psychologically) person. Some background infos:

over sensitivity defined
Over sensitivity is being over affected by an external influence that can hardly affect normal people, for example not being able to tolerate constructive criticism that other people normally tolerate.
the life of an over sensitive person
The life of an over sensitive person is much different than the life of other people, simple because the over sensitive person feels the pain in an exaggerated way and so has problems tolerating it. the over sensitve person forms anchors faster than anybody else, for example if he had a real bad experience in a different country than his home country, after he gets back he may hate the country as a whole because in that case he anchored the pain he felt to the place.
over sensitivity and mood swings
Over sensitive people are more likely to have bad moods, to get depressed and to be moody because their mode changes whenever any small event happen. An emotionally sensitive person is like a fragile person, or a person who is labeled "handle with care". The biggest problem is that people don't have enough knowledge sometimes to realize that they are dealing with an emotionally sensitive person and so they may cause him lots of pain without realizing this. A good thing that you can do in this case is to use the technique called "locking the emotions" in order to extend the periods of feeling happy.
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haha...especially during puberty period, oversensitive people will have even more frequent mood swings... that probably explains my regular mood swings lately.
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HEY!!! oversensitivity isn't a weakness hoh! Oversensitive people have their strengths too XD:

There are many good things about an emotionally sensitive person, first he feels people’s suffering more than anyone else and so in most cases he tends to be a nice and friendly person.
If you know how not to hurt a sensitive relationship partner then he will be a very good choice, emotionally sensitive people are the least problematic persons around.
Emotionally sensitive people usually have creative abilities which sometimes make them excel at arts or poetry.
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SOLUTIONS!!! (if u're experiencing the same problem as me, try these:)
DIET
LESS SUGAR!!!MORE PROTEIN!!!
Nutrition expert's advice: One thing you did not mention is sugar, yet severe mood swings and the need to eat regularly points to a problem with sugar metabolism, known as ‘hypoglycaemia’ or Low Blood Sugar (LBS). LBS occurs when the body's blood sugar, or glucose, is abnormally low, often because it is used up too rapidly. This could be an inherited weakness, although the condition most commonly develops as a result of a diet high in sugar, including from natural sources, and processed carbohydrates. LBS is known to have a very strong effect on the brain, and the symptoms you list are commonly associated with this condition. If sugar is not the issue, then perhaps you need to look at the fats in your son’s diet, in particular Omega 3 fats. These essential fats must be derived from food, as our body cannot make them by itself, hence the name ‘essential’.
Two fatty acids of particular importance in the sort of case you describe are EPA and DHA, found mainly in oily fish, and in flaxseed and hemp oils. DHA in particular is highly concentrated in the brain and nervous system, and was shown to improve learning and memory, dyslexia and dyspraxia and to enhance mood. It’s also important to restrict or avoid ‘bad’ fats, such as saturated and hydrogenated fats, which would counteract the benefits of good fats.
LOCKING YOUR EMOTIONS
One very good thing you can do to make mood swings happen less frequently is a technique called “Locking the Emotions”. This technique is based on a realistic assumption which implies that a great number of mood swings happen simply because we tend to persistently search and dig until we find something that makes us feel bad.
So let’s put it all together: if you feel happy or satisfied, try not to encounter unnecessary situations that can cause your mood to swing and you will find that your happiness lasts for much longer that it used to. Of course you still must go through daily important tasks and routines but only do them when you have to and not just because you want to dig.

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THIS IS A VERY GOOD WEBSITE THAT HAS EVERYTHING REGARDING PSYCHOLOGY AND THE MIND..(from how visualisation can help u succeed to how you can build good relationships, etc. EVEN the infos i've found are from there:)
http://www.2knowmyself.com/
(Scroll down and refer to some topics/FAQ on the very left column.)

Where have all the friends gone?

2009-06-25T14:30:00.000+08:00

Most of us start out seeking godly, true friends to walk with us over the stormy times, the pressured times and even our failures. But somewhere in our life experiences “true friends” seem harder and harder to find –- and keep! Circumstances change and real, or perceived, pressures on our friends lead them to think of their own best interests instead of ours. They then tend to leave us alone, taking sides with others and protecting themselves, becoming afraid to keep deeply identifying with us.

NA? -> my true friends?

HU? - to trust?

HOW? -> to keep them?

2009-06-23T22:58:00.000+08:00

Events for 22nd - 23rd June summarised by dion.
"Study study study... Mug Mug Mug..Went to JC house study ytd with John hao and De tian..John Hao left at 6.45 to meet his friends and we took the opportunity to get him to play mahjong before we were 1 player short.. so we took a break =p Went ALL AROUND eunos, kembangan and Bedok area looking for CARROT CAKE for my evil twin. Had a huge stomachache while walking ardzzz.. too much "hum" in my char kuey teow..overnighted at JC house.. Went back home bathe change at 3pm , then met up with DT, JC and Jeremy at white sands to mug at Superdog."
LOL... the protagonist of this post studied the least... slept the most...
AND as for me, i didn't think it was very productive studying as a group but if i don't study as a group, i won't study on my own...can't find the starting 'burst' or motivation...but i believe the momentum will soon build up cos after they left for home in the afternoon, and after my phototaking session in school, [the phototaking session taught me a lesson...to camwhore more next time :p they took several shots of me with different poses. i didn't know what and how to pose at first, but the camera man taught me a few basics. i was shaking infront of the camera. lol. tried to hide it but i think it was kinda obvious as the camera man asked me 'not to show my fear infront of the camera'. OMG...so paiseh, there were alot of people staring from behind the cam. But after the 4th pose, my smile became more natural and i wasn't that stiff. the session ended with a very 'charming' shot, said the camera man, AND AS USUAL.], went superdog and studied alone for two hours, cos some people were late. Was very productive.

NCC Day 2

2009-06-22T14:28:00.000+08:00

Reflection:
C1, 500m race - Wasn't as nervous as the day before but was more anxious to win as this was the race that i've been preparing for. Before i went down, Erlina told me that it doesn't matter what the outcome is, just put up a good fight and show the meridian canoeing spirit. With that, i went down, determined to win.

Upon reaching the start line, i realised that there were only 3 other competitors in the heat. Which means that i just have to beat 1 of them to enter the semi-finals... I told myself that this is it, i'm gonna win it. However, my starting burst wasn't that good and this had led to a significant gap right from the start. I was kinda stunned and disheartened...(later on, when i saw the timings for all the C1 500m heats, i realised that that 3 competitors were the faster few.) This discouragement had caused me to lose my fighting spirit. I wasn't focused but was staring at them for most of the time. When the third guy reached, my heart sank and i started to slow down.

Looking back, i didn't put up a good fight AT ALL...or at least for 80% of the time.

Mistakes made:
- Looking and caring about other people's race...
- Even if i couldn't get into semi-finals, i should also throw in my best and put up a 'good fight'... This led me into concluding that winning isn't about getting into semis or finals or obtaining medals...but about crossing the finishing line knowing that you have put in your best, having no regrets.

After i crossed the line, i was damn disappointed... it wasn't because i didn't get into semis... it was because i knew i could have done better. When I reached the baby pool area and looked back...John's race was progressing. He was 150m away from the finishing, the first two paddlers had crossed the line then. He was behind another C1 which had now started to slow down. John started to burst and before long, he was next to the C1. From the way he paddle, i saw the difference between him and me. It was a VAST difference - i can't really describe what i've seen... it was just very thought-provoking?/motivational? it was something that i don't have then... Even though he lost to him by a little, his conscience is clear, he knows that he had put in his best.

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Paddle Technique: didn't really take notice of myself... maybe should improve more on my direction? and probably strength...

NCC DAY 1

2009-06-20T20:53:00.000+08:00

Reflection:
... ... Yi Zheng was not able to compete in his race (C1 1,000) and upon being asked by Erlina, i agreed to take over him. Was quite nervous...am still when i think of it. I wasn't trained in this distance and was abit doubtful that i'll be able to throw in 100% throughout the entire 1km. Had lotsa moral and physical(ferrari team) support from my team mates...and finally it was my race. I was told by chengyew that i was lucky to have my first canoeing race with alvin as he will be able to guide me along. And true enough...to a certain extent, i was less worried about the miscellaneous - where and when do i report, how will it be like, where do i park, when do i start... On my way to the start line, i was right behind Alvin. And from his back, i saw FOCUS and THE DESIRE...the desire to compete, the desire to throw in everything, and the desire to win. The event before us had just started...soon after, we were told to get ready and park our boats. I started to panic alittle as i wasn't sure whether i can reverse in time and that i might affect everybody else. Fortunately, i parked my boat successfully at the start line. Looking around me, i saw people much buff and bigger size than me. I wasn't exactly worried as I took that race as an experience-gaining set. And then, it started.

I did a long pull for my first stroke and momentum started to build. i realised i was leading for 50m...after which, 3 boats overtook me. I continued and realised that i was in the forth position all the way to the 500m mark where a RJ boat from behind caught up. I lagged for abit and remembered those motivation techniques i've often used...i started shouting to myself - "JieChoong! You can do it! You can do it!" And i recalled what Alvin taught me... "Reach out...PULL!!!" and i did. Seeing the front 3 boats almost reaching the finishing line when i was still 400m away was a big discouragement. However, the RJ boat was still a distance away from the finishing line. I braced myself and tell myself there's still chance...I paddled as hard as I can, and it worked, i closed up the gap by ALOT...it was very significant, i can feel it...(and later on when i asked some of the others who watched the race, they agreed too). My team mates' shoutings also spurred me forth. However, it was too late and i couldn't catch up in time.

When i reached the finishing line, my effort was recognised by my team mates' applause. i was glad. Although i didn't make it into semis, this race set was quite an accomplishment to me in terms of the satisfaction gained through what i've learnt...which is to believe in myself and just throw all out. NEVER to give up.

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+ My direction was quite ok throughout...usually have difficulties doing a sudden turn, but this wasn't a problem during the race.
+ Speed-wise, could have done better...maybe cos i was told that this was for experience that's probably why it didn't occur to me to throw out everything from the start till the 3/4 mark.
+ My disadvantage is my strength, should eat more and work on it from now. Whenever i meet with a big wind, my paddle becomes a sail and i come bring myself to lean forward to pull.
+ Great exposure for me. (: